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Food Dreams...My Nightmares 
13th-Apr-2014 10:48 am
A good way to tell if you are succeeding at food restriction is not always the number on the scale but is sometimes the dreams that have you waking in panic like a phone waking you from a deep sleep. This happened to me last night.

In my dream I had a small candy bar and was "satisfied" so I thought I would have another but just the one. When I went to reach for it a buffet of candy, cakes, ice cream bars and pastries appeared. I began shoving every treat down my throat. Chewing and chewing...gasping just to swallow as fast as I could. When I woke up my heart was racing. I felt sick to my stomach. I couldn't remember if it was just a dream or if I had actually consumed all that shit the night before. Of course I didn't and it was just a dream but in that moment I felt powerless to food and in the following moment I damn near patted my own back realizing what had taken place.

It was just a nightmare. I can go back to sleep now.
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